My paranoia.

I have this irrational paranoia. (Not a fear, there is a difference.)
I always think that people are just putting on a front with me.
But it goes further than that.
Let me explain. (Or try my best to.)
I always have this thought that people are always pretending to like me.
Like they just hangout with me just to have a laugh.
Like when I turn my back, they're giggling with other people about me.
I can't explain it. 
It's like people pretend to like me, just so they can hate me more. 
I really can't explain it. 
Something.